Is Love still the Answer?

Tonight, like any other night before tonight, I sit here in my bedroom, alone and in my thoughts. The only way I can make sense of these inner emotions is to write them out.

Writing is and has always been my secret garden. Writing is how I process the complexities of my own inner psyche.

A lot of things have transpired and although the world looks the same so many things are changing right before our very eyes. People who are close to us are crying out in pain and suffering in silence and nobody seems to care or understand that silence also has a voice. I feel deeply and my heart hurts not from my own growing pains but from the pain of others. I remember praying so desperately for years for God to change my heart but it fell on deaf ears. It appears that my empathy and compassion for others and humanity grew even more. A patient and I had a conversation the other day and something she said spoke volumes to me and triggered something deep within me. She said her Cancer was small compared to what others are going through in the world. How deep is that? It made me realize just how much I, myself was taking for granted. How some of the things I find myself complaining about are minimal compared to what others are going through; mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

It also made me realize that I'm glad God didn't change my heart, that was one prayer that went unanswered. The ability to have empathy and compassion for humanity and other spiritual beings traveling through this earth school is a gift.

The ability to offer others hope and be a listening ear without judgement as they are going through trials and tribulations is also a gift. Do you know how much lighter your load becomes as you pray for someone else as you yourself are going through? I've realized that each time I was ready to give up on life God would send someone who needed me to listen or to pray for them. It can be so hard to pray for others while you feel like God has forgotten about you...but yet, that person who interrupted your despair, your pity party was actually the answer to your prayer. Tonight as I write this post I can't help but to wonder as I think over some of the news I've received this week and as I look at the state of the world, is Love the missing piece to the puzzle?

Would an abundance of pure love shift the earth as it spins on its axis? Maybe not, but love expressed through empathy and compassion for your fellow human traveler might be the life jacket they need. I'm just processing my thoughts and wanted to share some of the things written on my heart...

If nobody told you today let me be the first to say...I love you.