Hmmmm...let's see, how do I begin this post today? First, I have to send up a quick request, "speak Lord your daughter is listening". I have this routine that I do before I open up my mouth to speak, especially when I post on TikTok, where I ask the Holy Spirit, "what is the message?". In my mind I am moving ego out of the way so that God can speak through me. At first when I started sending this request up it was because I was nervous as all get out to speak out loud and especially in front of strangers. I have a fear of public speaking but that's another post for another day; and to think I desire to be an inspirational speaker. My next line of reasoning for asking the Holy Spirit to speak through me is because I want whatever is being stated to be from God and not from me, maybe in my mind that holds me less accountable. Basically, Mia didn't say it, God said it.
It is not by coincidence that as I sit here typing these words that instantly I found myself asking the Holy Spirit what the message is! I think it's my nerves. Now, I also noticed this; I have never sent a prayer request to God any other time before I sat down to write anything! Could this be a learning lesson? I'm not sure why God is making me aware of that in this moment. I can't help but to wonder if it's because maybe the other times I was allowing ego to be in control and doing things my way which means I was getting in the way. I recently reached a point in my life, again, where I desire to be locked all the way in with Source, God, God of the Universe, the Creator, the God whom I have come to know personally for myself. To be honest with you I have been running from God for a very long time and I am tired! Recently, I had an ah ha moment and realized that my life has been a constant cycle of going around in circles. Ego will have you doing that you know; ego will have you edging God completely out and leaning to your own understanding. I no longer desire to live my earthly life getting in my own way, rather I humbly ask God to do His thing!
The purpose of this transparency post is because I have a question for God, and since writing is my form of expression and communication I decided to sit down and write it out. I am also hoping that as I write these words, the answer will spill out in ink and as I reread my own words. I will get the answer to my own questions by reading my own innermost thoughts. Someone made a statement that triggered something within me which inspired me to write this post. The statement was posted under one of my social media videos that I shared today. A dear sister friend of mine stated, "I keep telling you that there's a calling over your life that you keep running from. Be still my friend and listen.". Now how deep is that? What's even deeper is I keep asking God what His purpose is for my life? What is this calling? I thought that I was in a space where I was being still and listening, why am I not hearing? Am I allowing ego to get in the way, again? Am I allowing what I see with these physical eyes (carnal minded) keep me blinded spiritually? Another friend of mine also stated that writing was my calling and to be honest, I pretty much blew a head gasket. How can writing be my calling? Her words were so profound that of course I had to write them down, "we don't choose our calling, our calling is a gift from God.". Writing is my calling, make that make sense, please and thank you! Now do not get me wrong, I love writing because it is a form of self-healing therapy for me, but I am not currently making a living out of it...so how is that my calling?
This human mind will have you tripping for real. Hmmm, is this another circle? I say that because when I think of my gifts making room for me. I believe that I am not alone when I think along the lines of our gifts and callings aligning us with financial freedom and the freedom to live life on our terms. Writing is something that I absolutely love to do but again for personal reasons. It helps me to get the rampant thoughts out of my head and it also helps me to see how far I have actually grown through this thing called life. Anyway, here is the prayer that I submitted to God in hopes of receiving some clarification on what it is that I am running from and to yet again ask God to part the red sea because a chic is tired of being in the wilderness, again. Hush, I read your mind...well Ms. Mia learn the lessons, so you don't have to keep repeating them. Oh, sugar honey iced tea, Holy Spirit is that you?
Dear God, what is the calling and your will that you have predestined for my life? What is the purpose and plan that you have for me, according to Jermiah 29:11? You know, the plans to prosper me and not harm me, the plans to give me a future and a hope, is that still part of the plan?
I know that your thoughts are not my thoughts, and your ways are not my ways. Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are your ways higher than my ways, but am I being egoic by asking you to reveal them to me? These are your words as stated in Isaiah 55:8-9, I just wanted to remind you to not forget about me. However, spiritually and intuitively speaking the Spirit woman that dwells on the inside of me knows that You are as near to me as the very breath that I breathe. You are as near to me as my fingertips and toes, as near to me as this physical body encased inside of this skin suit. Yet, I still desire to feel your presence especially when I am having moments such as this one. As my fingertips stroke the keys of this keyboard, I can't help to think am I the one that is out alignment with you? Either way, thank you for allowing me this time to commune with You.
Thank you for honoring my request and answering my prayers.
I really believe that God calls me His special daughter because the same way that I am writing out this prayer is the exact same way that I would speak it out loud. I tend to believe that God and I just have that type of relationship. One thing for certain, I hear the voice of God clearly, however it is when He is silent during the test and trials that I get a little worried. When I am examining my earthly life through physical eyes. As much as I try not to, my humanness gets in the way. When I think of humanness and flesh, I sometimes equate them to ego.
Being that I consider myself to be more spiritual than I am religious, I find myself coloring outside the lines of religious doctrine and ideologies; could that be why sometimes misconstrued lines are coming into fruition.Is that Ego? A spark of inspiration, Ego and Spirituality will be one of my next topics of discussion, maybe. I'll wait to see where my Spirit leads me. Better yet, Holy Spirit what's the message? (lol)
As I close out this post, I would like to leave you with this realization that continues to be revealed to me. Your relationship with the God of your understanding is as unique as your fingertip. Prayer is a conversation between you and your Source, your Higher Power; mediation is where you Be Still and Know that He is God and listen for your Soul to speak. God will never leave you or forsake you, when you feel the wind of your breath that is how close and near God is to you.
Write out your prayer request, ask for guidance, talk to God as if you are conversating with a friend. When you look into a mirror know that that is God looking back at you because you are a divine creation and created in His image. To love God is to Love yourself.
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Love Ya, Mia
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