How ironic is it that as I sit down to write this post this particular song popped into my minds eye. I'm certain that its a Diana Ross song, as I can vibrationally hear the sweet, soft melodies streaming from her vocals cords, playing ever so gently inside of my head. It still amazes me when Spirit, Source, the Holy Spirit, God shows up in this manner.
Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?
Do you know?
I'm asking you as I am sitting here also asking myself, "do you know where you're going to?"
Allow me a few minutes of your time to have a moment of transparency. Last night, 09/07/2022 I had a moment, I found myself in tears, questioning the Most High God about my divinely appointed path, my purpose for existing in this earthly realm.
Whether you choose to admit it or not, we have all reached a point along this human journey where are lives just don't make sense to us in the physical plane. I share this story often about how when I was a younger child in elementary school being asked the question, "What do you want to be when you grow up?". My answer was, "Who God created me to be!". I was met with the response of, "No, what I mean by my question is something along the lines of a doctor, a lawyer, an astronaut, maybe even a nurse".
I tell that story to share how that response from my teacher aided in the spiraling cycle of losing my identity of self and to add insult to injury a shit load of student loan debt.
I know that it is not by coincidence that this particular song dropped into my Spirit which in turn guided me to write this post. Do I know where I am going? Honestly, not all the time. This life I am currently living does not fit the life that I feel I was created to live but I am certain that it is leading me along a path towards finding the true spiritual essence of self that exist inside of me. Do I like the things that life is showing me, heck no! However within my moment of honesty I have come to realize that knowing what I do not want guides me to know with a clear specificity what it is that I do want. Triggers can be our biggest blessings.
Although my answer to the above posed questions currently is no, but not a definitive no. What I do know that I am still living on purpose for a higher purpose and I am walking the path that is part of my Divine Purpose which is a higher calling.
I oftentimes wonder if my teacher would have given me a different answer would my life have turned out differently? I have also taken into consideration that she probably had no clue how to answer my question, which I think is hilarious.
Last night while I was caught up in a whirlwind of emotions, questioning the Most High God about my divinely appointed purpose, honestly if this song would popped into my minds eye it would have broken me. However, today as I type out my emotions, as I stand fully aligned in self awareness, realizing that I am always on my path towards becoming who God created to me, even when the path isn't always clear. I have come to learn along my spiritual journey that when I think I am off my path I am always on my path. Every life experience has contributed to my self growth, self development and self identity.
Most of us, I tend to believe are always searching for that place of safety that feels like home within ourselves. Maybe like myself, someone early in your formative years when you were most impressionable killed your dreams, maybe trauma and pain inflicted from your childhood left you void of feeling worthy, heard, loved or that your existence even mattered. Allow me to reiterate this concrete fact; your past pains, traumas. or failures are not who you are, that is not your identity!
When you begin to forgive yourself and let go of the things, people, pain and whatever you are accustomed to using to fill voids, you will begin to see with clarity the essence of the pure, unfiltered beauty that is you. You will also begin to see yourself through the eyes of whichever higher power that you associate with as your God. When you hold onto the traumas that you have survived, (yes, you still have breath which means you are a survivor) you will never see who you truly are, you will see yourself through distorted eyes, the visual of guilt, shame, pain! This is not your true identity!
Can I share this nugget with you?
It's safe to let go, it is safe to let go, it is safe to let go!
I want to leave you with this divine revelation as I come to the closing of this post, the more I surrender and trust the unknown it is becoming apparently clear that I am living my life out loud as as the Woman God created me to be. Allow me to explain, trusting that internal nudge, my intuition, my highest self that began with that particular song today, that posed a series of questions I had to sit within myself and answer with honesty. That nudge is what sparked me to write this post. That is what I call divine alignment! How amazing is it that I can boldly say that what life is showing me is clearing the path for me to know where I am going and if for some reason the path becomes unclear I know that my steps are already ordered and all paths lead to the best version of myself, regardless of the lessons I may have to learn and endure along the way.
Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?
Do you know?
Trust in the Unknown and allow the unfolding of your life to guide you back home to you.
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